Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Coffee, Anyone?


There’s an illustration I read about ten years ago, and it came across my e-mail again this week. It’s entitled, “CARROTS, EGGS & COFFEE.”  The story is about a young woman who is having a rough time, and tells her mother how hard things are, how she doesn’t know how she can make it and wants to give up, etc…  Everytime it seemed like she got one problem solved, a new one took its place.  The mother goes into the kitchen and sets three pots with water to boil.  In the first pot, she places raw carrots, in the second pot, raw eggs, and in the last, ground coffee beans.  She lets them boil and doesn’t say anything.  About twenty minutes later, she turns off the burners.  She strains the carrots and puts them in a bowl. She places the eggs in a second bowl. She ladles out some of the coffee and places it in a third bowl.  Then the mother asks her daughter what she sees.  “Carrots, eggs, and coffee.” (She was probably thinking, “DUH!” but according to the story, she doesn’t say that!)  Her mother brings her closer and asks her to feel the carrots. They are now soft.  She asks her daughter to break the egg, and the daughter observes that it is now hard-boiled.  Finally, she asks her to taste the coffee.  She comments on its rich aroma, but then asks what is the meaning of it all.  The mother asks in response, “Which are you? When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?”  The point is this: Which one am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity wilts, becomes soft, and loses strength? Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a break up, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff?  Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart? Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain.  When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor.  If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. 
There’s a similar illustration that Jim Berg uses. I heard it first at a retreat where he was a guest speaker, but it’s also in his book, Changed into His Image. His illustration is of a tea bag in hot water, and his point is that, it is not the water that changes the flavor of the tea. It merely reveals what was already in the tea bag.  If you are a hot tea drinker, you know that there are all sorts of blends and varieties of teas.  Looking at the bags, you can’t always tell the difference, but it is the hot water that reveals what was already in the bag.  So many times we want to blame our sinful actions on our circumstances.  As if going through a hard time gives us a right to say or act in a way that we claim is uncharacteristic of us.  But we know that our hearts are deceitful above all things and desperately wicked.  When those wrong words, those wrong actions come out, is it the circumstance that caused them? Or is the circumstance, the “hot water” we are in, only revealing what was already in our heart? I don’t like the answer to that one.  In Mark 7, Jesus was questioned by the Pharisees about his disciples not washing their hands, and he replies, “there is nothing outside the man which can defile him if it goes into him; but the things which proceed out of the man are what defile the man.”  Later, when they are alone, his disciples ask about what He meant. He explains to them, “That which proceeds out of the man, that is what defiles the man.  For from within, out of the heart of men, proceed the evil thoughts, fornications, thefts, murders, adulteries, deeds of coveting and wickedness, as well as deceit, sensuality, envy, slander, pride and foolishness. All these evil things proceed from within and defile the man.”  I must constantly be striving to keep my heart pure before God so that when hot water does come - and it always does - then what comes out will leave a pleasant taste for those who are around.
There are different times in my life when I have been the carrots and looked strong, but lost my strength. I know that there are times when I allowed my heart to become like the egg, and even though I looked the same on the outside, inside I was hard.  I want to be like the coffee bean (or the tea bag) and influence my surroundings. But more than just changing the surroundings, I want it to be a sweet and lovely flavor/fragrance.  I don’t want to just color the hot water, I want to make it better! And I want it to be something others can look at, and benefit from, and say “Wow! Look what God did through her!”
I was thinking of all of these things this morning as I drove back to work from a court date in another county. Another setback. Another disappointment. Another “pot of hot water.”  Another time to face those I struggle to forgive. The tears were flowing down my cheeks as I drove, and even for the first few minutes when I was back in my office.  It would be so easy to give in to self-pity, hatred, or bitterness. But I want to be different. I resolve that I will be different. 
James said to "count it all joy" when we face trials of different kinds because it produces patience in our lives.  Today, I am thankful for the hot water...for the trials that show me what I truly am and how far I still have to go to be like my Lord.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Vines and Branches

I looked up this passage today because it has been coming across my mind lately. A friend mentioned it as he talked about pruning back some bushes in his yard. My pastor mentioned it Sunday morning in his message. Another friend was talking about grafting vines last night. I've read it many times, but I wanted to go back and re-read the whole passage and really look at it.

"I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit, He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit, He prunes it so that it may bear more fruit...Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. I am the vine, you are the brances; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me, you can do nothing. If anyone does not abide in Me, he is thrown away as a branch and dries up; and they gather them, and cast them into the fire and they are burned. If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you..." John 15:1-7

The phrase that keeps crossing my mind is this: "apart from Me you can do nothing." I wrote about forgiveness and my battle to forgive someone who has wronged me deeply. The struggle is daily, as sometimes that is as often as the hurts come. I wish this had just been just one wrong in the past that I could forgive and move past, but it is not.  Just yesterday, I got an e-mail and follow-up phone call informing me of a new hurt. How can a wound heal that is constantly re-opened? I suppose it is a sign that I have at least grown a little that I immediately took it to God in prayer. But then it woke me up early this morning, and I wrestled with it again...and again...and again. So back to God I go, "God, I can't do this. I want to obey You. I know this is what You want. Give me Your heart for this person..." and it was then that this phrase - these verses came to my mind. "Apart from Me you can do nothing."  It was almost as if God was answering back, "I know you can't do this...but here is what you can do - abide in Me." This fruit of the Spirit - this unconditional love that forgives and forgives and forgives - if I want it to bloom in my life, I must abide in Christ! 

There is a tree outside my office that sheds branches like no tree I have ever seen.  It seems every morning, there are more branches on the ground. It's not a fruit tree, but still, as I walked in this morning, I looked at those dead branches on the ground, and thought about this passage. What good are dead branches? None at all! Jesus compared them to someone who does not abide in Him - they dry up and are gathered and burned up. And how foolish it would be for a branch lying on the ground to think it can produce even leaves, much less fruit! It has no nutrients, no support system, nothing! I wonder if sometimes I don't start to cut myself off - I'm running late and don't spend time with the Lord...I mean to do it later, but then get busy...and then I start to dry out. I'm not abiding in the Vine. I like the last verse - "if you abide in Me, and My words abide in you..." If I want to see this fruit in my life, I can not afford to let anything separate me from my Vine. That word abide - we don't really use it much anymore - but we say sometimes "our abode" referring to our home. Abiding in Christ isn't something I can do just for a few minutes every day or so. It's a constant state of living in Him - and part of that is letting His words live in me.  If I do those things, He says, "ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you." I know this isn't some genie-in-a-bottle kind of magic promise. But if I am abiding in Him, and His words are abiding in me, my desires are going to be His desires, and He can accomplish them through me.
Right now I am hurting again, and I am clinging to my Vine. I can't produce this fruit in my life, but He can. I want His love to flow through me.